Every room in the house has major damage, except the one we were in waiting for the storm to pass. The room we were in has only minor damage. This awful situation could have been so much worse. We see God shining through this in so many ways. We knew that when we decided to step out in faith to adopt our son that the path may be hard. God never promises an easy life he promises that he will be our rest in the storm.
“Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.” Matthew 11:28-30
We have spoken to our social worker about what the future of our adoption looks like. She informed us that she is not able to process the adoption home study due to the information about the home not being accurate. We don't currently have a home. She will complete everything that she can. Then when we are in our home after the repairs she will come back for an additional home visit to inspect the new home and submit the paperwork for approval.
Which make perfect sense, but that statement almost broke me. It was not our social worker or the frustration of our life being put on hold, but the fact that I don't currently have a home. I have been homeless before in my life. I never knew this would happen in my adult life. I know that this is completely different, but as many children who have survived abuse know the wounds run deep. The emotions of past hurt will show up at unexpected moments. This was one of those moments. We are homeless. We have no control over this process. I felt myself spiraling in to fear. We are able to live with my mother in law. All of our basic needs are meet. God is providing.
We cannot see the daylight in this storm yet. We are in one of the hardest trials of our marriage. We have so much stress. We all still have to live life as we did before. We are out of our home and unsure when we will be back in it. All the work we have put in over the past year seems to be gone. We have amazing friends and family by our side, and we are forever grateful for that. We know that this will pass. God is putting the test in our testimony. Our adoption is not over. We will still be pushing to move forward toward bringing our son home as soon as possible.
With this we are praying. We are praying to receive guidance on our house. We are praying that the insurance agency provides answers. We are praying that our adoption continues. We are praying for our children at home are understanding our the current situation.
